Omg, it has been a while! Longer than I could have thought or imagined since I last updated you here. Well, so much has been going on and honestly, I’ve had only a few moments to breathe and take it all in. First thing first, how are you doing? Like really, how are you doing?
Exciting news: I got my job back!!! After one year of sitting at home and in the midst of a pandemic, I returned back to work in April!!! You know what that meant right? Life got real and crazy very quickly. Within two weeks I had to wrap up my teaching/tutoring gig, return equipment, handle business and pack to hit the road again! My first assignment took me to Amelia Island, FL which was beautiful and awesome! So many amazing days I spent at the beach and literally had an impromptu worship experience on the beach one morning. It was pure joy and simply amazing.
During that morning I decided to enjoy this next chapter of life and not live in a state of fear wondering when it would all be over. Has that happened to you? It’s the feeling of “Wow, this is so amazing, and life is good” coupled with the fact of “Maybe I shouldn’t be so joyous because what if it all goes away tomorrow?!” Yep, that was me. You know I’m an advocate for therapy and so while speaking with my therapist and sharing how I was feeling she explained to me that I was essentially “waiting for the other shoe to drop” and living in a state of fear. She encouraged me to just take it one moment at a time and simply live and enjoy the journey. It allowed me so much peace and that worship experience on the beach was the result of allowing myself to just be present and still. All of this brings me to my thought for this month.
As we are being present and allowing ourselves to fully enjoy the moment, I realized that I don’t have to worry about the future because I don’t hold nor control the future and my destiny. Whatever, God desires to bring to pass in my life, it will happen at the appointed time, and I can’t rush my way into it. Be it marriage, children, buying a home, building my career or seeing other dreams that I have come to pass, it will happen when it is supposed to. I know, I know this is easier said than done and trust me I struggle with it daily. However, it is the truth. I shouldn’t be concerned with the how’s and why’s; my job is to follow God and be obedient to what he has instructed me to do.
Remember, Small Steps, Big Payoff! Don’t wait for the one moment to come when you will be happy. Be happy now and enjoy every moment. It’s tough and scary, but it will make the journey that much better. Can we try together? Let’s try to focus on today and not be worried about tomorrow. Let’s try to remain present with our friends and family and not focus on the unfished work waiting for us at the office. Let’s enjoy conversations and meeting different people not focused on if he or she is “the one”. Let’s enjoy the moments and cherish the memories. Inside Out is one of my favorite children’s movies because I really believe that we have core memories and it’s those memories and feelings that we hold close to our heart that makes the hard days a little more bearable. Listen, I love you and I’m rooting for you to not worry about tomorrow but stay present with today!
With Love,
